A new day

I have let myself go in terms of being healthy physically and spiritually. For the past 3 years I have been in school equipping myself mentally and in return I gained 30 + lbs back and lost sight of my calling. The one thing I hold dear to me is my purpose. It hasn't left but it's been pushed to the back of the closet and hidden under some boxes. So I figured I would return back to this blog and take it one day at a time. I use to be active, I loved working out, dancing and any other physical activity and lately there has been a absence of that. My plan in September was to work out and drop the weight by Jan. so that I could join the NAVY reserves. Needless to say that plan failed I mean crashed and burned. I am now sitting here today and I might be in fact 5 - 10 lbs heavier and unhealthy. Today I decided enough is enough after taking photos of myself last night and seeing how big I have become. Now 200 lbs to a plus size woman isn't that bad but when you factor in my height and the fact that I have a small frame it's alarming. My frame is curvy but there is no way in HELL I need to be this big. I don't have a goal weight and I don't want to look at the scale, I want to feel different when I put my clothes on and be able to move around better. Last time I was this size I had knee pain well at 25 it's back. I need a partner , someone to hold me accountable so I will try my best to blog my whereabouts on a daily basis. My first milestone is to get past this month doing some sort of workout everyday and cutting out the sugar and fast food. I'm giving myself 2 weeks to cut out EVERYTHING bad for me from my diet and change my daily activities. I honestly just want to complete this month and not worry about the scale as much as breaking OLD habits.