Do't you hate it when

You have one of those dreams where you don't stop running and wake up tired . I had one of those dreams last night and the portion I remember is I was braiding one of my students hair and putting beads in it and it took forever , she would not let me finish because she was tender. I asked someone why and they told me it's because she was being raised by her father and he CANT do her hair like a female. The guy was doing a good job but he just didn't know how to do hair. So after school I walked her to the bus stop which is separate from the older kids because she is in peep. I had a discussion with a co-worker /friend about adopting her not full time but as in being like a God parent if he wanted help with the female part of helping a child. When we got to the bus stop I got on to help her get to the back but the is bus driver was just as reckless as a CTA worker but in downtown Kalamazoo. I tried to get off and I told her I didn't need a ride but she continued to go. It only seemed like 2-3 min but she drove me way past where I needed to be and the place where I ended up had changed so much I didn't even recognize where I was. It pissed me off so much that the last thing I remember saying is " Why did that B!tch do that" and woke up.

Day 5

Sorry for the Hiatus. I have been doing good eating well within my calories and enjoying it to the fullest. My body feels much healthier not being attached to sugar or heavy starches. I will weigh myself this weekend to see if hard work has been paying off. Also we got Active 2 for ps3 today and Im amped to combine that with my PX90 workouts I have been doing.

1/6/12

So far here is what I have been doing.

Start Date :1/5/12

1/5/12 - 20 min of Plyometrics

Calories consumed :1376

Calories Burned: 220

1/6/12

Core Synergistics

Today is a lot better than yesterday but I'm still pissed about being reckless with my body. I'm SMH at myself...NEVER AGAIN. Nope can't do it anymore. I told a friend last night my first goal is to break out off 200. Whats sad is I have not weighed myself so I could be close to 220....so if we want to be real thats a total of 70 I need to lose to get to where I want to be and about 40 just to feel comfortable. Going shopping in a few days for better groceries and until I hit my first goal I will be cutting out sweets, breads, pasta , fast food and unhealthy snacks, NO MORE ICE CREAM which is my favorite by the way.

A new day

I have let myself go in terms of being healthy physically and spiritually. For the past 3 years I have been in school equipping myself mentally and in return I gained 30 + lbs back and lost sight of my calling. The one thing I hold dear to me is my purpose. It hasn't left but it's been pushed to the back of the closet and hidden under some boxes. So I figured I would return back to this blog and take it one day at a time. I use to be active, I loved working out, dancing and any other physical activity and lately there has been a absence of that. My plan in September was to work out and drop the weight by Jan. so that I could join the NAVY reserves. Needless to say that plan failed I mean crashed and burned. I am now sitting here today and I might be in fact 5 - 10 lbs heavier and unhealthy. Today I decided enough is enough after taking photos of myself last night and seeing how big I have become. Now 200 lbs to a plus size woman isn't that bad but when you factor in my height and the fact that I have a small frame it's alarming. My frame is curvy but there is no way in HELL I need to be this big. I don't have a goal weight and I don't want to look at the scale, I want to feel different when I put my clothes on and be able to move around better. Last time I was this size I had knee pain well at 25 it's back. I need a partner , someone to hold me accountable so I will try my best to blog my whereabouts on a daily basis. My first milestone is to get past this month doing some sort of workout everyday and cutting out the sugar and fast food. I'm giving myself 2 weeks to cut out EVERYTHING bad for me from my diet and change my daily activities. I honestly just want to complete this month and not worry about the scale as much as breaking OLD habits.

Great Music

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZ8IM-60mMg&feature=channel

After much anticipation one of my favorite youtube singers has dropped her video to her single entitled " Hello My Apple". I love her voice and I wish her all the blessings in the world!

World’s Smallest WiFi Adapter!

Can we say, LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEES IT!

I have three internet service providers at home. Now I prefer to use a USB adapter than cable wires as it looks neater and more organized. Well, if you are like me, I think this small adapter will prove to be handy.

Buffalo’s Wireless-N Ultra-Compact USB 2.0 Adapter offers a portable solution to add high-speed wireless connectivity through an available USB port on your Windows laptop or desktop. With faster wireless data rates and more coverage than legacy 802.11 products, WLI-UC-GN provides better performance than most PCs’ internal wireless card. It offers sufficient bandwidth and range to stream video, voice, and music. Support for the AirStation One-Touch Secure System™ (AOSS™) allows you to set up a high-speed, secure wireless network within minutes.

Abstinence

Benefits of Abstinence

1. Clear conscience with God.

2. Peace of mind in your life and future relationships, and marriage.

3. More self-respect and more respect for each other1 and respected by other people.

4. Always remember, in a healthy relationship, respect precedes love.2 And premarital sex only throws away your self respect and your partner's.

5. You enter marriage with a more positive outlook and without carrying emotional baggage.

6. Personal freedom for both of you and your (future) marriage partner.

7. Significantly better chance in having more satisfying and more stable marriage.

8. Longer lasting relationship. Premarital sex surprisingly breaks up more dating couples than any other factor.

9. No comparing or being compared sexually in marriage. It also means "being free to enjoy maximum sex, maximum leisure, maximum satisfaction, and maximum liberty, in the way God intended" that is in the covenant of marriage.

10. No worries about pregnancy and STDs.

11. Less worries about bad reputation.

12. It's a fact that persons and couples who have premarital sex are more likely to have extramarital affairs as well.

13. Premarital sex often fools a person into marrying someone who really isn't right for them.

14. You don't have to put yourself under someone else's mercy not to reject you. It's still a fact, that the more "experienced" guys and girls are generally less desirable and less respected as dating or marriage partners.

15. Realize there is a 98 percent chance you will never marry the person you date in high school3, so it is always better to keep yourself pure for the right person, that is your future wife or husband.